I thank her existance in my life for the time she had given to not only me but to my love ones too. It's she who always believed in me that has made me at the least disciplned of who I could be. It's she who lifted my head up when I thought the whole world was above me. It's she who does not forget me in every birthday that I had(those gifts that she had given: from toys to sport shoes to watch, shirt, ties and wallet...), in every holidays that passed (the priviledged 'Ang Baos' that only i get to received), in every event that created history in my life (both my ups & my downs). It's she who shows, shares and teaches me what love is and what strength can be gathered from. It's she who always trust that no matter what i'm doing is for good and of good. It's she who always believed that I'm a good boy who will protect & provide for my family which continues me in trying hard clinging on to be as one. It's she who hopes the best will fall upon me in whatever I'm facing in life. It's she who ascertains that no matter what I do, even if I may be wrong, can be viewed otherwise.
I have to confess I'm never as good as she thinks I am. I am too slow in repayment of what she has given me. Promises to her which I had never fulfilled; could have been better handled, I'm sorry. Could have sang her more songs with my guitar, but have never mastered that well. Probably she thinks I should leave it for others; I'll remember the debts that I owe her and will repay them by living in happiness and creating it for my love ones. I'll remember that she always want me to be happy. A 'best friend' her husband called her; in tears I almost bursted. Ironically that I may not like him as a person but thru her indeed, I've learnt & respected him. I can recall the numerous praisings in conversations that she had given him of being in her life, I respected; for all that I'm ignorant of, he must have given her all the strength & love which she casted on me, I thank him too.
I'll miss her, I'll sure be, who has known her would not... In grief I may be but in grief i shall not be; her wish is my command, towards happiness I'll be.
"It's both an honour and pleasure to have known you mdm, will be at your service still..."