Heard fr a gal e other day who finally believe in heartaching; who encounter something so devastating in life tt she couldn't believe tt she had for the first time cried herself to sleep without realising it until she's next awake. Immediately I tot of another scenario when a gal pinched me very hard earlier this year and asked if I felt e pain, my reply was, "What's more painful than heartache." I tried hard to recall tt time why and how great was the intensity of heartache tt I was experiencing then. As I tried to recall, I started tinkin of more questions for myself. When was the first time tt I've felt heartache? Why do I can't recall when was tt? Or was it tt there were too many heartaches in my life tt ea is more painful than the previous tt I couldn't recall when was the first truly heartache I've felt? I've also try to recall how many times tt i've told somebody sitting next to me when I'm drinking tt 'a sad man can never be drunk', which I've really never been to date. I've tried my best in drinkin, hoping tt I'll be so drunk tt I can stop tinkin for a moment in life. But I've never suceeded. My stomach will just get so filled tt what ever I gulp down next will just came rite out fr my stomach thru my mouth. Nothing gets better, in fact, once I thought I'm very high & tot I was finally drunk, my mind gets clearer of what I'm going thru in life instead; makes me hate faith more, made my heart so tightly cramped by an invisible vice and the airway for oxygen narrowed so much tt breathing seems to be a problem. It was an emberassing moment of my life though when tt happened, wouldn't put tt into details. People around me tot I was drunk but I couldn't care much of the hallucination I've created for my heart was so aching tt I couldn't care much of what others think then. How painful a heartache is, I wish all who's breathing never felt; if u're feeling a heartache now, I wish u bypass it soon, not wif another worse heartache like what I'm going thru but blessfully with another lifely life.